Fake Faces Everywhere I See...

Hmmmmmmm 12 days since my last post... Not too bad... I just never have any urge to blog sometimes. Okay... At the moment, I'm on a From First To Last kick.... which is ALL Leah's fault because before she made me listen to the rest of the CD, I was fine with only liking "Note To Self". But no, I was made to listen to the rest of the CD AND their other CD. So now I have to go out and by it.... damn you Leah! Damn you!

I'm also a bit worried about my other friend. I mean, how the hell do you tell a guy that his girlfriend is no good for him? Especially when said guy loves that girl. I just wish he hadn't started going out with her again. All she does is cause drama and hurt him. And that hurts me because I love him to no end.... He's like my lil brother.... It hurts that I can't help him.

On a happier note, I got a job :D I have to go in for a training thing next week. The pay is good... and the hours won't be that bad since the place closes at 7pm! One of the bad things is I'll probably be working every single weekend during the school year. But hey, working til 7 isn't too bad... and if I can get morning shifts, that's even better because I'm a night person anyway.

I suppose that's all the news I have at the moment.... Well, I am kinda sore because Field Hockey conditioning started up again... but I'll get over that....

Note to self I miss you terribly,
Cait AKA The Hella Rad Ninja Grrl

If You Could Slit My Throat....

Remember what I typed as how I felt on Thursday? Well I felt that way again today.... still do... I sorta think I'm starting to have a problem.... I still really wish Shawn was online, because he always makes me feel better. I also wish Leah was online because she could help, but I think she's busy at her new house. I just don't know what to do anymore.... I shouldn't feel like this..... should I? I don't know. I HATE not knowing. I wanna run outside and scream... I wanna sit in my room and scream... I wish I was home alone... so I could scream. I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!

But since it's 1 in the morning, I can't really do that, now can I? I need somewhere to go and scream..

Standing on the rooftops... everybody scream your heart out.....
Cait... AKA The Hella Rad Ninja Grrl

Felt The Chill Upon My Face...

I'm in a really weird mood right now... And I don't think I like it too much. I feel like no one really knows how much I love them...... and if I went to sleep and never woke up, I don't think I'd mind too much. I don't know why I feel this way... It makes me feel nauseous.

Also, I'm trying, for my friend, to like his girlfriend. I should probably start at the beginning, where she dumped him... and I didn't like her. She was a bitch to me and some of my other friends, and then to him, and so he didn't like her. And then now I find that he asked her out again. I want to be friends with her, for him... because he's really cool. But she started shit when I didn't do anything to her... Oh well.

I guess the point of this is to express how I feel, how I feel kinda empty.... I wish that my friend Shawn would get online... whenever I talk to him I always smile and laugh a lot...

To This Nature So Unnatural
Cait AKA The Hella Rad Ninja Grrrl